First Class…

It’s been such a long weekend for me, I just wanted to share a testimony, this happened Saturday and Sunday. I was flying back home from Oregon Saturday night, so many little things happened that night that getting to the airport almost seemed like slow motion, not to mention once I arrived at the airport trying to find someone to help me to trying to get them to speak words I understood, ๐Ÿ˜† it was a mess, finally getting through security was incredible that’s when I knew that I wasn’t going home that night. Then, when I tried to get help to getting another flight, I was scolded by the manager for being late, which I wasn’t really, but the point is he kept accusing me of something that wasn’t true, I tried explaining to him once and very rudely making a scene, rolling his eyes he wouldn’t stop saying it was my fault and not the airline, to which I felt so confused about because I had not once mentioned blamed to anyone, all I wanted was to get another flight. I was too exhausted and physically in pain to deal with this person who was not being reasonable, I immediately felt like I needed a pause, so I put my stuff down, I took a breath, and I said a quick prayer, Lord, I don’t know what’s happening, I had it all worked out and I’m not sure what to do or say to this person, please help me, I just need a flight home and some peace. The man looks at me and says, I can get you on another flight but first thing tomorrow morning no charge, just be here. Finally! Yes, I said, okay I got it. He gave my ticket I called my brother he came to pick me up, when I told my brother what happened he was more upset than I, on the way back home to my brother’s place, I thanked God and I blessed that person and I thanked him specifically for whatever it was that he had saved me from that night. The next morning, I was so exhausted from the night before and now I was two hours waiting for the plane to board, but still giving thanks to God because his plans are better. The person boarding the plane let’s me go first and as he hands me my ticket to board the plane he says, “I upgraded you to first class”, I almost cried on the plane, I was so exhausted that I couldn’t even defend myself from the airport person the night before, and so exhausted from waiting that morning, and all I could do was trust God. From then on, I could have not been helped more by the nicest people on the plane and once I arrived home. It was his love and faithfulness that took care of me in those times when I couldn’t do it myself. He knows the plans that he has for me, I trust him specially in those places where you are blindsided and winded. My obedience to let God fight for my justice, instead of me trying to interfere and find my own is what activated my faith in him to be able to step into my life and take control. Let God take control of your life for a while, trust him blindly, He won’t disappoint. Let him remind you and show you, that you are a child of the Most High God and that you most certain belong in First class.

Lord higher than you is none. There is none more faithful and loving. Please forgive me for allowing others or my surroundings tell me who I am, when your word clearly states that I am yours. Help me in those times when I can’t help myself. Give .w strength and courage when I have none. Help me to see what you see in me and help me embrace the blessing you have bestowed upon me. Lord I trust you. In Jesus name Amen.

#flowinhisgrace

It Won’t Work…

Did the title throw you off a little? Well, let me elaborate. Many years ago before I was saved, I had a sort of spiritual awakening for a lack of a better term. I knew about God but I didn’t like religion and so I called myself spiritual. Yes, spiritual, what does that even mean? Now it seems a bit silly when I think about it. I guess, what I was trying to say was that I didn’t like religion, I didn’t want to be labeled a Christian, I didn’t want to follow anyone’s specific rules or guidelines to get closer to God. More specifically, I knew what some Christian based churches taught, which was baptism, fasting, praying, reading the bible and being part of a community, most of those things I mentioned I wasn’t willing to do, nor compromise about it. I literally prayed to God and said, I won’t get baptized and I won’t be part of a community where I have to serve or talk to anyone ( immature me), of course that only seemed to pull me farther apart from my purpose. Forward to present time, I’ve been baptized twice (once in the actual Jordan river) and have found an amazing community of people in my church that have welcome me in a way that I can’t explain with words but know in my heart was God sent. In my ” spiritual awakening” I had a long list of the things I didn’t want to do to get closer to God or to have peace in my heart and life, I had to many limitations and restrictions for God, all those things were walls that I had built myself to protect myself from the what if’s in my head, what if God isn’t real, what if the people at church hurt me, or lie to me, what if I’m not worthy or what If I open up and become vulnerable and I get taken advantage in my weakness. With all those walls, all those restrictions, all those conditions, getting closer to God and finding my purpose in this world was never going to work. So, I got lost in many religions, reading books, finding temples, yoga, magic, buddhism, healing myself affirmations, books on how to help myself find peace and all sorts of other stuff that only worked temporarily and when it went away left me feeling even worse. Where am I going with this, you can read all the self help books, all the autobiographies, you can do all the yoga and breathing exercises you want, WITHOUT GOD, IT WONT WORK! By no means am I saying reading self help books are bad, what I am saying (because it happened to me) is that the only way to start truly healing is to let your walls down, ask God to show you the truth. If Jesus is the your foundation, if God isnt number one in your life, and If you still have many conditions, you will never be truly happy. This life doesn’t work without God. Think about it, is there an area of your life where you just can’t seem to have peace in? Is there a wall? A condition you’re putting God? I know you want peace, I know you want to feel loved, appreciated, valued, noticed, I know you want to succeed, be fruitful, be blessed to be a blessing, I know you want to find your purpose, but I’m afraid it just won’t work without God. In my personal journey to findings who in was, I found that I can never walk this life again without my creator. I encourage you to let those walls fall and to just let God guide you into His will, let us pray.

My most amazing creator, my loving Father in heaven, I come to you, scared of the unknown, afraid of what you might reveal to me, afraid of getting hurt, afraid that I am not worthy, afraid that I don’t have enough faith, overwhelmed by this place I’m in because no matter how much I try to control or manipulate those things around me it just doesn’t bring peace. I am lost, I am drowning in a sea of hopelessness and I know that I am stubborn and I ask for forgiveness, I can’t do this alone anymore, I know that anything in my life will not work if you’re not involved. So, I’m inviting you into my life, into my heart, that you may search me and find within me not only that unwillingness to give my life completely to you but anything else that is keeping me from fulfilling my true purpose in your will and cast it out so that I may be delivered into your wonderful freedom and love. I am yours, and I know that without you, it just won’t work. In Jesus name Amen.

#flowinhisgrace

God sent someone…

Today I wanted to share with you something that is very intimate for me, something that I treasure in my heart and is forever engraved in my thoughts.
When I was sick (cancer) and doctors didn’t know what was wrong and I knew something was very wrong, I felt death upon me as days, weeks and months passed and still no answer to my health deteriorating. It was a year exactly when I finally ended up one more time in the E.R and I was told that I had a tumor (no cancer, yet) I was immediately given a date for surgery which was just days away, I remember them saying that they couldn’t do a biopsy because if it was cancer then they would risk transferring it into other parts of my body. A month later, I was asked to meet with a specialist at the hospital which I did, I sat in the room waiting alone, as she walked in and sat in her chair, she turns and says to me that I have to undergo aggressive chemotherapy treatment, the tumor had been in my body way too long and developed cancer cells, the tumor had grown 11.8 inches and it touched and pushed my organs which caused me a lot of discomfort. I remember going back in my head and thinking of the day I knew there was something wrong but I didn’t know what, I remember asking God to reveal to me the illness, I asked Him to guide me to the right doctors, I asked Him to fill me with His courage and to help my family when I shared the news. That whole entire time, from the day I knew something was wrong to finding out what it was and what needed to be done, not once was I alone. God had sent someone who held my hand through the pain, through the confusion of not knowing what was wrong, through feeling of death at my door, through having to call two of my family members and say my will. He sent someone who even though at times I could not even speak a word from being overwhelmed with the news, just sat there in the quiet times with me. Someone who held my hand during the treatments, who was always front and center when I opened my eyes after having taking an ivy of Benadryl to help with the side effects of chemotherapy. He made sure I got to my treatments on time because if I didn’t I would have to start all over (and boy, was there obstacles getting me there). Someone who reassured me every step of the way that no matter what He would never leave my side. Someone who held me as my hair fell off my head in big chunks, someone who never judged me as a raged from the treatment messing with my thoughts and emotions. Someone who still saw the beauty inside when I felt tired, worn, distorted and ugly. He would talk until I fell asleep and He reminded me of who I was to God. That someone is MY Jesus.
This testimony is the short version, so many unbelievable things and incredible things happened in that journey but the point of this short story is, My Jesus came through. I called on Him everyday, and everyday He showed up. Are you in a place where you need to call Your Jesus? I promise He will show up. No matter how big or small your situation, (mine just happened to be big at that time) He will show up when you call on Him with all your heart. Let us pray,

My Jesus, please forgive me if I’ve been trying to do life all in my own. I need you to meet me where I am, Jesus the name above every other name. Jesus, King of Kings, Jesus, my savior, my comforter, my provider, my healer, my Lord. I call on you because I am weak right now, because I don’t have the answers, because I don’t have the solutions, because I am not strong, but You are. Here I am. I can’t do this on my own, I am tired, I don’t know where to go. Jesus, I know you hear me, I lift my hands to you and receive your rest and your peace. I receive your love, and your guidance. I need you in my life right now, I surrender my heart, mind and soul to you, let me shine for you, let me praise your name now because you have already triumphed, you already have the victory. Thank you, I love you. In your name I pray, Amen.

#flowinhisgrace

A Reminder…

We all need Holy reminders, for me it was one of those weeks where the Holy Spirit just continued to remind me of who I am in Christ. Sometimes were expecting a new verse or a new word from God but what we really need is a simple reminder of the things we already know but have forgotten in the midst of uncertainty. My reminder came in the form of a piece I had written before. To me a reminder but maybe for you a new word.

My most precious daughter, I see you and I am well pleased. You are the apple of my eye. My most valuable creation indeed. I have hidden treasures inside your being that will be brought to life in my presence. How I delight in the worship of your heart and the way you lift me with your praises. I have an invitation for you on this day that you may leave behind that which brings grief into the heart that I have given you. That you may step forth with me into the calling I prepared for you that others may follow your lead and be able to know me as well and that you may be transformed into royalty as I have meant for you to be my delegate in all things Holy. Let me dry those sorrowful tears that often fall into the palms of my hands and let me turn them into tears of joy and victory. Won’t you come near and hold my hand that I may never let you go and forever live in my grace. All that causes you pain is not in vain and know that it will always come and go but today if you hold me near you will never be alone. 

Now, go and testify.

John 1:12

But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.

Revelation 21:4

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

Esther 4:14

Perhaps this is the moment for which you were created.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

1 Peter 2:9

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, Godโ€™s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

1 Peter 3:15

But in your hearts revere to Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.

If Not Now, When?…

Have you ever pushed time with God for later because you weren’t “feeling it” or plain simply didn’t want to do it because you were doing something else that was distracting you? I didn’t want or felt like reading my devotional sometime last week, I was putting it aside and I opened the bible twice and said later but then in my spirit I didn’t feel right so I stopped what I was doing and just started with my devotional and wow, God wanted to tell me something that strengthen me in the moment and I really didn’t know it until then that I need that strenghting. After, I read the Bible verse for today as I’m reading the bible in a year, and God also had so much love to share with me as I read along and not only for me but he also put some people in my heart that I must share with. When I was done, I felt so loved by Him and so humbled, I also felt a little shame that I was putting Him to the side when all he wanted was to share with me His strength and love. Needless to say that I’m sure the people God put in my heart to share as well felt the same love. So, I say don’t set God aside, don’t dismiss Him, don’t make Him wait for you, when He calls embrace Him. Don’t bring disorder to your consistency of putting time for Him aside intentionally. God loves us so much and He knows us so well, Hrs trying to give us wisdom at all times before something happens and we find ourselves disoriented. Like me, you may be in need of comfort without even knowing it because you’re trying to distract yourself from your worry. Stop. Take that moment even if it’s to sit still, He will show up. If not now, when?

Lord, please forgive me for letting myself be distracted by other things instead of intentionally making time for you. Forgive me for embracing the wonderful time that you give us when I pray. Holy Spirit, make me more sensitive to your presence and be my guide that I may never stray too far from the Lord. I give you this time, my love, my heart, everything. Thank you for your forgiveness and your unconditional love. In Jesus name Amen.

In His Time…

When the doctors told me that fibromyalgia was the culprit behind the pain I had in my body, I felt so confused about the promises God had for me and what I was going through as they were contradicting themselves. The pain would only get worse as time passed to the point where I used a cane and also got shots in my heels for pain which were as painful and would only last about a week. I could barely walk and I was at times in full depression. What didn’t help was that there was a person who was always reminding me of all the things I couldn’t do and wouldn’t be able to do, it was fraustrating but I kept reminding myself that God can snap his fingers and make me whole whenever it was His will. Deep down I knew He would one day, three years later here I am, no cane, no pain. It took a lot of faith and what kept me from feeling disappointed and discouraged and ultimately disabled was that I knew the God I served, I knew His promises and where to find them, I knew that He had plans for me. Even in the times where I found myself depressed and so lost I called on Jesus. I didn’t know why or when it would get better, all I knew was that God said it would, but before it did there were things I had to do. One, completely trust in God no matter what I was seeing, hearing or feeling. Two, I had to read his promises over and over. Three, I had to bless those who contradicted anything that God had already affirmed.
No matter what you’re going through, I am here to tell you that God is faithful and His will be done in His time and it’ll be worth it! Keep your eyes on Jesus and keep moving forward, when resistance comes it just means you’re closer to the miracle!

My Faithful Wonderful Father, thank you for always being there for me when I need you. Thank you for taking care of me and never letting go. Thank you in advance for the healing that you bring my heart and my body as well as my Soul and mind. Lord thank you for showing me patience and faith in you is worth more than anything on this earth. I give it all to you Lord, In Jesus name Amen.

From Where Does My Help Come From?…

Every time I feel alone and helpless the Holy Spirit reminds me that I am not. It’s been difficult at times with my health, it can get lonely sometimes and to be honest I tend to withdraw in moments when I feel like no one can possibly understand what I’m feeling physically. Today I had a great reminder, From where does my help come from? Does it come from any human being around me or does it come from myself? No matter how much pain I’m in the answer will always be the same, Truly my help comes from above. All I need to do is call out the name of the one who has already healed me, the one who has set me free, the one who comforts me in my time of need and the one I rejoice in when I’m afflicted because of Him. What a Beautiful name it is, the name of Jesus.

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. I call on you, the name above all names, the one who does on the cross for my healing, my sins, my shortcomings. I call on the one who I know is my comfort and my defender. I need you, it’s simple, there’s nothing else that I can say that you don’t already know. Right now in this moment I just praise your name to the Heavens. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. Thank you, King of Kings!

How long will you stay in the belly of the whale…?

Jonah 1:17
Now the Lord provided a huge fish to swallow Jonah, and Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.

Jonah 2:1-9
From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: โ€œIn my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me. From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help, and you listened to my cry. You hurled me into the depths, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, โ€˜I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again toward your holy temple.โ€™ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But you, Lord my God, brought my life up from the pit. โ€œWhen my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, Lord, and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple. โ€œThose who cling to worthless idols turn away from Godโ€™s love for them. But I, with shouts of grateful praise, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good. I will say, โ€˜Salvation comes from the Lord.โ€™โ€†โ€

Ephesians.3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

James 4:10
Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.


I can’t even fathom sometimes how truly great God is and how willing and for us He continues to faithfully be towards us even in the times when we reject Him. I was thinking about how some of us use so much energy to run the opposite way of God, when it’s so much easier to just flow in His grace. Makes me wonder what Jonah was thinking or feeling that would make him so bitter towards God. I wonder if he prayed and didn’t like God’s respond, or if the responsibility of being a prophet was too much, or if he had a loss and couldn’t find the why, maybe he was just simply tired. One thing was clear though, He didn’t like that God showed mercy towards his enemies (makes me wonder if Jonah ever thought why them and not me). Whatever was going on his heart was definitely affecting his relationship with God, yet God went after him trying to show Jonah the forgiveness He brings to us even when we don’t deserve it. Three days and three nights Jonah was in the whales belly and I wonder if he was in the whale that long because it took him that long to make that bold prayer (even though it wasn’t ideal, leave that for another time). Surrending is never easy, I know I’ve surrendered even when I still felt like I was treated unfairly, like a bratty child with a parent. Nevertheless, like Jonah, I know the God who created me, created the seas and the dry land, a merciful, forgiving, a true Savior of my life, therefore, I knew that surrendering and humbling myself was the way to go. I want to ask you something. How long will you stay in the belly of the whale? How long will you sulk? How long will it take for you to surrender? How many times will God have to show you how much He loves you? Oh! Our God is ever so willing. Willing to say yes to whatever we ask in agreement with His will. I tell you, whatever that “thing” is that stands between you and God, bring it to the throne, lay it down, surrender it, bitterness, disappointment, sadness, loss, anger, jealousy, betrayal, hate, arrogance, pride, whatever it is, I urge you not to waste anymore time and let God start healing your heart from all that overtakes it and brings you to a place of uncertainty and bitterness. Don’t let pride rob you of what already belongs to you. God wants to show you His great mercy and grace, shower you with love and favor. Make that prayer, surrender.

Father God, I came boldly to surrender all that I’m feeling and it isn’t all good and positive but I know that you are the only one that can change a heart. I don’t want to run from you anymore, I don’t want to have bitterness in my heart, I surrender my ego, my pride, my all to you who knows me like no one else and who loves me unconditionally, you who forgives without condemnation. I accept your word, your love, your forgiveness, your grace. Thank you for showing me mercy and most of all for allowing me to surrender over and over. Holy Spirit be my guide in the Lord’s path, shine the light in the way I should go that I may never be lost. Thank you Abba. In Jesus name Amen.

Until God…

Philippians 1:6

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

It’s been a week full of commotion (but I want to think it was mostly full of prayer ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿปโฃ๏ธ). Let me start by saying, I’m less than a week into a hysterectomy recovery (Ovarian Cancer survivor, 8 yrs. In remission but I don’t have to worry about that anymore), it’s been a lot, therefore I won’t have a lot to say this week, but just a quick praise report๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป. While in surgery, I stopped breathing, my heart actually stopped, from what I look like (bruises and all) they brought me back pretty quickly and obviously still here (Praise Godโ˜๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป) and thank you from the bottom of my heart โค๏ธ and may God bless ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป you abundantly my Worshipwalk Church family and all those who literally took time aside to pray for God to see me through. So, My brother asked me if I saw the light (๐Ÿค”) I did not, now I’m wondering why I didn’t (๐Ÿค” ๐Ÿฅด). So, yeah anyway, God is good, I am still here because He wants me here, nothing can take me out without His consent, not someone else’s mistake, not my own mistakes, not someone else’s will or wish or desire, not the enemy who likes to prowl like a roaring lion. I will be here living and breathing until the day that THE LORD Himself calls me to heaven โ˜๏ธ.ย  Today, I will just share a song that was in my thoughts, heart and lips during my stay in the hospital. Thank you all for reading this. Jesus Loves you!โฃ๏ธ (Also, thank you to the Hospital Staff if you’re reading this! ๐Ÿ˜‰)

Click below for song ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป

When HE’S First…

Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.


My soul is well when I put God first.
My spirit is at peace when I put God first.
My life has order and meaning when I put God first.
My heart is full of love when I put God first.
My thoughts are full of promise when I put God first.
My mind is clear when I put God first.
My words are full of power when I put God first.
My prayers have answers when I put God first.

My life is eternal when I put God first