It Won’t Work…

Did the title throw you off a little? Well, let me elaborate. Many years ago before I was saved, I had a sort of spiritual awakening for a lack of a better term. I knew about God but I didn’t like religion and so I called myself spiritual. Yes, spiritual, what does that even mean? Now it seems a bit silly when I think about it. I guess, what I was trying to say was that I didn’t like religion, I didn’t want to be labeled a Christian, I didn’t want to follow anyone’s specific rules or guidelines to get closer to God. More specifically, I knew what some Christian based churches taught, which was baptism, fasting, praying, reading the bible and being part of a community, most of those things I mentioned I wasn’t willing to do, nor compromise about it. I literally prayed to God and said, I won’t get baptized and I won’t be part of a community where I have to serve or talk to anyone ( immature me), of course that only seemed to pull me farther apart from my purpose. Forward to present time, I’ve been baptized twice (once in the actual Jordan river) and have found an amazing community of people in my church that have welcome me in a way that I can’t explain with words but know in my heart was God sent. In my ” spiritual awakening” I had a long list of the things I didn’t want to do to get closer to God or to have peace in my heart and life, I had to many limitations and restrictions for God, all those things were walls that I had built myself to protect myself from the what if’s in my head, what if God isn’t real, what if the people at church hurt me, or lie to me, what if I’m not worthy or what If I open up and become vulnerable and I get taken advantage in my weakness. With all those walls, all those restrictions, all those conditions, getting closer to God and finding my purpose in this world was never going to work. So, I got lost in many religions, reading books, finding temples, yoga, magic, buddhism, healing myself affirmations, books on how to help myself find peace and all sorts of other stuff that only worked temporarily and when it went away left me feeling even worse. Where am I going with this, you can read all the self help books, all the autobiographies, you can do all the yoga and breathing exercises you want, WITHOUT GOD, IT WONT WORK! By no means am I saying reading self help books are bad, what I am saying (because it happened to me) is that the only way to start truly healing is to let your walls down, ask God to show you the truth. If Jesus is the your foundation, if God isnt number one in your life, and If you still have many conditions, you will never be truly happy. This life doesn’t work without God. Think about it, is there an area of your life where you just can’t seem to have peace in? Is there a wall? A condition you’re putting God? I know you want peace, I know you want to feel loved, appreciated, valued, noticed, I know you want to succeed, be fruitful, be blessed to be a blessing, I know you want to find your purpose, but I’m afraid it just won’t work without God. In my personal journey to findings who in was, I found that I can never walk this life again without my creator. I encourage you to let those walls fall and to just let God guide you into His will, let us pray.

My most amazing creator, my loving Father in heaven, I come to you, scared of the unknown, afraid of what you might reveal to me, afraid of getting hurt, afraid that I am not worthy, afraid that I don’t have enough faith, overwhelmed by this place I’m in because no matter how much I try to control or manipulate those things around me it just doesn’t bring peace. I am lost, I am drowning in a sea of hopelessness and I know that I am stubborn and I ask for forgiveness, I can’t do this alone anymore, I know that anything in my life will not work if you’re not involved. So, I’m inviting you into my life, into my heart, that you may search me and find within me not only that unwillingness to give my life completely to you but anything else that is keeping me from fulfilling my true purpose in your will and cast it out so that I may be delivered into your wonderful freedom and love. I am yours, and I know that without you, it just won’t work. In Jesus name Amen.

#flowinhisgrace

Communion…


I believe the verse Matthew 26:26-29 is an example of how Jesus was trying to show them how to be united and even though a couple verses before this one Jesus mentions that someone will betray Him, yet, He still goes forward and has supper with them as they all come together as one by eating the bread and drinking the wine. To me, it just shows that Jesus was telling us in the midst of uncertainty and in a time where there was fear of what the future was to bring, we are to come United breaking bread as we face our trials together, praying and taking part of communion. The word communion is defined as sharing with each other intimate thoughts with one another meaning that we are to come to one another in our most very distressful and times of need to pray for one another and encourage one another, but we must take the step to reach out and even in that feeling of shame or shyness or whatever holds you back, we must overcome to have a true chance of being obedient to God. Is there anything that is holding you back from having this communion? Surrender it to Jesus right now.

Lord, King of Kings! I come to you right now feeling inadequate, feeling shame, guilt, feeling embarrassed and shy, and I surrender all these feelings to you so, that I may be able to move forward into communion not only with you but with my brothers and sisters in Christ, that may be able to boldly stand and ask for prayer when I need it, boldly declare your promises that you’ve given me and rest in your peace that surpasses all understanding. I surrender so that I can be lifted higher and closer to you. In your name I pray Amen.

#flowinhisgrace

A Reminder…

We all need Holy reminders, for me it was one of those weeks where the Holy Spirit just continued to remind me of who I am in Christ. Sometimes were expecting a new verse or a new word from God but what we really need is a simple reminder of the things we already know but have forgotten in the midst of uncertainty. My reminder came in the form of a piece I had written before. To me a reminder but maybe for you a new word.

My most precious daughter, I see you and I am well pleased. You are the apple of my eye. My most valuable creation indeed. I have hidden treasures inside your being that will be brought to life in my presence. How I delight in the worship of your heart and the way you lift me with your praises. I have an invitation for you on this day that you may leave behind that which brings grief into the heart that I have given you. That you may step forth with me into the calling I prepared for you that others may follow your lead and be able to know me as well and that you may be transformed into royalty as I have meant for you to be my delegate in all things Holy. Let me dry those sorrowful tears that often fall into the palms of my hands and let me turn them into tears of joy and victory. Won’t you come near and hold my hand that I may never let you go and forever live in my grace. All that causes you pain is not in vain and know that it will always come and go but today if you hold me near you will never be alone. 

Now, go and testify.

John 1:12

But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God.

Revelation 21:4

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

Esther 4:14

Perhaps this is the moment for which you were created.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

1 Peter 2:9

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

1 Peter 3:15

But in your hearts revere to Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.

If Not Now, When?…

Have you ever pushed time with God for later because you weren’t “feeling it” or plain simply didn’t want to do it because you were doing something else that was distracting you? I didn’t want or felt like reading my devotional sometime last week, I was putting it aside and I opened the bible twice and said later but then in my spirit I didn’t feel right so I stopped what I was doing and just started with my devotional and wow, God wanted to tell me something that strengthen me in the moment and I really didn’t know it until then that I need that strenghting. After, I read the Bible verse for today as I’m reading the bible in a year, and God also had so much love to share with me as I read along and not only for me but he also put some people in my heart that I must share with. When I was done, I felt so loved by Him and so humbled, I also felt a little shame that I was putting Him to the side when all he wanted was to share with me His strength and love. Needless to say that I’m sure the people God put in my heart to share as well felt the same love. So, I say don’t set God aside, don’t dismiss Him, don’t make Him wait for you, when He calls embrace Him. Don’t bring disorder to your consistency of putting time for Him aside intentionally. God loves us so much and He knows us so well, Hrs trying to give us wisdom at all times before something happens and we find ourselves disoriented. Like me, you may be in need of comfort without even knowing it because you’re trying to distract yourself from your worry. Stop. Take that moment even if it’s to sit still, He will show up. If not now, when?

Lord, please forgive me for letting myself be distracted by other things instead of intentionally making time for you. Forgive me for embracing the wonderful time that you give us when I pray. Holy Spirit, make me more sensitive to your presence and be my guide that I may never stray too far from the Lord. I give you this time, my love, my heart, everything. Thank you for your forgiveness and your unconditional love. In Jesus name Amen.

In His Time…

When the doctors told me that fibromyalgia was the culprit behind the pain I had in my body, I felt so confused about the promises God had for me and what I was going through as they were contradicting themselves. The pain would only get worse as time passed to the point where I used a cane and also got shots in my heels for pain which were as painful and would only last about a week. I could barely walk and I was at times in full depression. What didn’t help was that there was a person who was always reminding me of all the things I couldn’t do and wouldn’t be able to do, it was fraustrating but I kept reminding myself that God can snap his fingers and make me whole whenever it was His will. Deep down I knew He would one day, three years later here I am, no cane, no pain. It took a lot of faith and what kept me from feeling disappointed and discouraged and ultimately disabled was that I knew the God I served, I knew His promises and where to find them, I knew that He had plans for me. Even in the times where I found myself depressed and so lost I called on Jesus. I didn’t know why or when it would get better, all I knew was that God said it would, but before it did there were things I had to do. One, completely trust in God no matter what I was seeing, hearing or feeling. Two, I had to read his promises over and over. Three, I had to bless those who contradicted anything that God had already affirmed.
No matter what you’re going through, I am here to tell you that God is faithful and His will be done in His time and it’ll be worth it! Keep your eyes on Jesus and keep moving forward, when resistance comes it just means you’re closer to the miracle!

My Faithful Wonderful Father, thank you for always being there for me when I need you. Thank you for taking care of me and never letting go. Thank you in advance for the healing that you bring my heart and my body as well as my Soul and mind. Lord thank you for showing me patience and faith in you is worth more than anything on this earth. I give it all to you Lord, In Jesus name Amen.

In the Valley…

In the valley I can still hear your whisper in the gentle pass of the winds, In the valley I can still see your grace in the shadows that shield me from the sun, In the valley I can still feel your mercy in the sand that comforts me while I rest, In the valley I can still feel your love in the beauty of emptiness, In the valley I can still see your greatness at night when the stars shine upon me. In the valley I know that you are still mine but more than that I know that I am still yours. In the valley I know that I may seem to walk alone but your presence will not leave my side. In the valley things are unclear and uncertain but faith in you has still not been shaken. In the valley where at times my heart hardens and I have no compassion, you still show me forgiveness. In this valley where I am only passing through you are my compass. I’m this valley where it hurts, you are my comfort. In this valley where I can’t see during the sand storms my faith in you leads the way. In this valley, I will be refined by you. In this valley, I still trust you.

Lord, I pray for anyone who is in the valley right now. I pray that they see you and feel you as they are passing through. I pray that in this time they find you as comfort. I pray Lord that you pick that one that falls with your righteous right hand. Lord I pray that they dwell under your mighty shadow. Lord I pray for clarity and peace. And I thank you for when the journey ends. Lord walk with us, In Jesus name Amen.

In the Garden of Gethsemane…

Matthew 26:36-37

Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled.

Matthew 26:38-39

Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

Matthew 26:42

He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”

Have you been to the garden of Gethsemane? Have you prayed like Jesus prayed at the garden? I have. Many times.

This whole chapter has so many little treasures that we can take for ourselves and store as wisdom in our hearts but I want to focus today on how Jesus’ priority was to pray, not only that but the urgency Hee had to make sure that His disciples knew that praying with Him was essential. Jesus teaches us what to do when we’re in a place of sorrow and trouble. First, He lets us know not to be alone, as He Himself took two disciples with Him as He instructed them to sit while He went “over there”. I remember one night I was in a place of sorrow and trouble and I didn’t know what to do, (this was a very long time ago before I was saved) and I remember asking God for help at that time as best as I could with the little knowledge I had but what I remember also is that I showed up at one of my dearest friends house and I sat on her couch and all I did was cry as she sat across from me and we didn’t say a word to each other. To know that in her heart she was also praying and being there for me in the only way she knew how was such comfort. I think Jesus was telling us that there will be times when we need to reach out for our own good as well as to be models to those who love Him as well. Second, we shouldn’t be afraid to ask God to help us in anyway. Jesus boldly asked God to remove that which was causing Him great sorrow to the point of death. Jesus knew that God was ever so capable and it wasn’t in vain to ask, at the same time He knew that as long as it was God’s will no matter what it would be, He wouldn’t be alone. Just recently, a few times I may add in my times of pain while in recovery of surgery I’ve made a similar prayer, “God take this pain away but let your will be done”, knowing that even IF he didn’t somehow he would also give peace to my heart and spirit. Lastly, I just want to encourage you to come before our God, cry out to Him in all your sorrow, your trouble and let Him take control of that which makes your heart ache.

Lord, sometimes in the midst of sorrow and trouble and pain we get so blinded by what our flesh feels and it seems almost unbearable but I ask you Lord that you hear my cry and that no matter what it is you bring down your will into my heart. Abba, I receive you and whatever plans you have for my life and I do not worry because I know you see me. Here I am, Lord help me in my need. Thank you in advance for being so faithful and so willing always. In Jesus name Amen.

How long will you stay in the belly of the whale…?

Jonah 1:17
Now the Lord provided a huge fish to swallow Jonah, and Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.

Jonah 2:1-9
From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: “In my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me. From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help, and you listened to my cry. You hurled me into the depths, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, ‘I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again toward your holy temple.’ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But you, Lord my God, brought my life up from the pit. “When my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, Lord, and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple. “Those who cling to worthless idols turn away from God’s love for them. But I, with shouts of grateful praise, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good. I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the Lord.’ ”

Ephesians.3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

James 4:10
Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.


I can’t even fathom sometimes how truly great God is and how willing and for us He continues to faithfully be towards us even in the times when we reject Him. I was thinking about how some of us use so much energy to run the opposite way of God, when it’s so much easier to just flow in His grace. Makes me wonder what Jonah was thinking or feeling that would make him so bitter towards God. I wonder if he prayed and didn’t like God’s respond, or if the responsibility of being a prophet was too much, or if he had a loss and couldn’t find the why, maybe he was just simply tired. One thing was clear though, He didn’t like that God showed mercy towards his enemies (makes me wonder if Jonah ever thought why them and not me). Whatever was going on his heart was definitely affecting his relationship with God, yet God went after him trying to show Jonah the forgiveness He brings to us even when we don’t deserve it. Three days and three nights Jonah was in the whales belly and I wonder if he was in the whale that long because it took him that long to make that bold prayer (even though it wasn’t ideal, leave that for another time). Surrending is never easy, I know I’ve surrendered even when I still felt like I was treated unfairly, like a bratty child with a parent. Nevertheless, like Jonah, I know the God who created me, created the seas and the dry land, a merciful, forgiving, a true Savior of my life, therefore, I knew that surrendering and humbling myself was the way to go. I want to ask you something. How long will you stay in the belly of the whale? How long will you sulk? How long will it take for you to surrender? How many times will God have to show you how much He loves you? Oh! Our God is ever so willing. Willing to say yes to whatever we ask in agreement with His will. I tell you, whatever that “thing” is that stands between you and God, bring it to the throne, lay it down, surrender it, bitterness, disappointment, sadness, loss, anger, jealousy, betrayal, hate, arrogance, pride, whatever it is, I urge you not to waste anymore time and let God start healing your heart from all that overtakes it and brings you to a place of uncertainty and bitterness. Don’t let pride rob you of what already belongs to you. God wants to show you His great mercy and grace, shower you with love and favor. Make that prayer, surrender.

Father God, I came boldly to surrender all that I’m feeling and it isn’t all good and positive but I know that you are the only one that can change a heart. I don’t want to run from you anymore, I don’t want to have bitterness in my heart, I surrender my ego, my pride, my all to you who knows me like no one else and who loves me unconditionally, you who forgives without condemnation. I accept your word, your love, your forgiveness, your grace. Thank you for showing me mercy and most of all for allowing me to surrender over and over. Holy Spirit be my guide in the Lord’s path, shine the light in the way I should go that I may never be lost. Thank you Abba. In Jesus name Amen.

Until God…

Philippians 1:6

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

It’s been a week full of commotion (but I want to think it was mostly full of prayer 🙏🏻❣️). Let me start by saying, I’m less than a week into a hysterectomy recovery (Ovarian Cancer survivor, 8 yrs. In remission but I don’t have to worry about that anymore), it’s been a lot, therefore I won’t have a lot to say this week, but just a quick praise report🙌🏻. While in surgery, I stopped breathing, my heart actually stopped, from what I look like (bruises and all) they brought me back pretty quickly and obviously still here (Praise God☝🏻🙏🏻) and thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ and may God bless 🙏🏻 you abundantly my Worshipwalk Church family and all those who literally took time aside to pray for God to see me through. So, My brother asked me if I saw the light (🤔) I did not, now I’m wondering why I didn’t (🤔 🥴). So, yeah anyway, God is good, I am still here because He wants me here, nothing can take me out without His consent, not someone else’s mistake, not my own mistakes, not someone else’s will or wish or desire, not the enemy who likes to prowl like a roaring lion. I will be here living and breathing until the day that THE LORD Himself calls me to heaven ☁️.  Today, I will just share a song that was in my thoughts, heart and lips during my stay in the hospital. Thank you all for reading this. Jesus Loves you!❣️ (Also, thank you to the Hospital Staff if you’re reading this! 😉)

Click below for song 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻