How long will you stay in the belly of the whale…?

Jonah 1:17
Now the Lord provided a huge fish to swallow Jonah, and Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.

Jonah 2:1-9
From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: “In my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me. From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help, and you listened to my cry. You hurled me into the depths, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, ‘I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again toward your holy temple.’ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But you, Lord my God, brought my life up from the pit. “When my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, Lord, and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple. “Those who cling to worthless idols turn away from God’s love for them. But I, with shouts of grateful praise, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good. I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the Lord.’ ”

Ephesians.3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

James 4:10
Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

I can’t even fathom sometimes how truly great God is and how willing and for us He continues to faithfully be towards us even in the times when we reject Him. I was thinking about how some of us use so much energy to run the opposite way of God, when it’s so much easier to just flow in His grace. Makes me wonder what Jonah was thinking or feeling that would make him so bitter towards God. I wonder if he prayed and didn’t like God’s respond, or if the responsibility of being a prophet was too much, or if he had a loss and couldn’t find the why, maybe he was just simply tired. One thing was clear though, He didn’t like that God showed mercy towards his enemies (makes me wonder if Jonah ever thought why them and not me). Whatever was going on his heart was definitely affecting his relationship with God, yet God went after him trying to show Jonah the forgiveness He brings to us even when we don’t deserve it. Three days and three nights Jonah was in the whales belly and I wonder if he was in the whale that long because it took him that long to make that bold prayer (even though it wasn’t ideal, leave that for another time). Surrending is never easy, I know I’ve surrendered even when I still felt like I was treated unfairly, like a bratty child with a parent. Nevertheless, like Jonah, I know the God who created me, created the seas and the dry land, a merciful, forgiving, a true Savior of my life, therefore, I knew that surrendering and humbling myself was the way to go. I want to ask you something. How long will you stay in the belly of the whale? How long will you sulk? How long will it take for you to surrender? How many times will God have to show you how much He loves you? Oh! Our God is ever so willing. Willing to say yes to whatever we ask in agreement with His will. I tell you, whatever that “thing” is that stands between you and God, bring it to the throne, lay it down, surrender it, bitterness, disappointment, sadness, loss, anger, jealousy, betrayal, hate, arrogance, pride, whatever it is, I urge you not to waste anymore time and let God start healing your heart from all that overtakes it and brings you to a place of uncertainty and bitterness. Don’t let pride rob you of what already belongs to you. God wants to show you His great mercy and grace, shower you with love and favor. Make that prayer, surrender.

Father God, I came boldly to surrender all that I’m feeling and it isn’t all good and positive but I know that you are the only one that can change a heart. I don’t want to run from you anymore, I don’t want to have bitterness in my heart, I surrender my ego, my pride, my all to you who knows me like no one else and who loves me unconditionally, you who forgives without condemnation. I accept your word, your love, your forgiveness, your grace. Thank you for showing me mercy and most of all for allowing me to surrender over and over. Holy Spirit be my guide in the Lord’s path, shine the light in the way I should go that I may never be lost. Thank you Abba. In Jesus name Amen.

Until God…

Philippians 1:6

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

It’s been a week full of commotion (but I want to think it was mostly full of prayer 🙏🏻❣️). Let me start by saying, I’m less than a week into a hysterectomy recovery (Ovarian Cancer survivor, 8 yrs. In remission but I don’t have to worry about that anymore), it’s been a lot, therefore I won’t have a lot to say this week, but just a quick praise report🙌🏻. While in surgery, I stopped breathing, my heart actually stopped, from what I look like (bruises and all) they brought me back pretty quickly and obviously still here (Praise God☝🏻🙏🏻) and thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ and may God bless 🙏🏻 you abundantly my Worshipwalk Church family and all those who literally took time aside to pray for God to see me through. So, My brother asked me if I saw the light (🤔) I did not, now I’m wondering why I didn’t (🤔 🥴). So, yeah anyway, God is good, I am still here because He wants me here, nothing can take me out without His consent, not someone else’s mistake, not my own mistakes, not someone else’s will or wish or desire, not the enemy who likes to prowl like a roaring lion. I will be here living and breathing until the day that THE LORD Himself calls me to heaven ☁️.  Today, I will just share a song that was in my thoughts, heart and lips during my stay in the hospital. Thank you all for reading this. Jesus Loves you!❣️ (Also, thank you to the Hospital Staff if you’re reading this! 😉)

Click below for song 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻

When You Stop Running…

Jeremiah 10:12-13

“But God made the earth by his power, and he preserves it by his wisdom. With his own understanding, he stretched out the heavens. When he speaks in the thunder, the heavens roar with rain. He causes the clouds to rise over the earth. He sends the lightning with the rain and releases the wind from his storehouses.”

Luke 1:35

“The angel replied,” The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So, the baby to be born will be holy, and he will be called the Son of God. “

Romans 15:13

“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.”

Psalms 139:7-10

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.

Jonah 1:1-3

Now the word of the Lord came to Jonah the son of Amittai, saying, “Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it, for their evil has come up before me.” But Jonah rose to flee to Tarshish from the presence of the Lord. He went down to Joppa and found a ship going to Tarshish. So he paid the fare and went on board, to go with them to Tarshish, away from the presence of the Lord.

When you finally stop saying no, I can’t, what if, but, and maybe to God. This sentence came thru my mind right after I agreed to lead bible study next week. It brought tears of Joy to linger in this thought because of all the running away from God I did for half my life, truthfully, all it brought was more sadness, depression, confusion, anger, hatred, loneliness and unhappiness to my life. Everything I did was for the wrong reason (knowingly and unknowingly) and all I attracted was drama, chaos and while it brought that into my life it also brought so much uncertainty about everything my little brain could think of. I was so exhausted from running that it lead me to drugs and alcohol, it took me to make some very dangerous choices with the life that God had given me, and it was all roads leading to death for me. When I was too tired to even contemplate how I could just end it all, I stopped running, I dropped on my knees and I cried, I wailed, I painfully groaned, I had no words, all I did was to let my whole entire body just cry. I couldn’t tell you how many days this lasted but it was more than a couple, where all I did was pray in the darkness if my room and I fasted and prayed. What I was asking God to show me had to be supernatural and it had to be big because I couldn’t be here on this earth any longer, I asked Him to show me His glory, to make me feel like I was really set aside and made for His purpose, and He did. I begged and begged the Holy Spirit to bring down the cleansing fire on me, my change had to be radical, I had no time left in me, and He did. I was so broken in this world and I kept letting it break me, then I asked Jesus to reveal Himself and to show me His love, and I saw in my mind, Jesus sitting on His throne and His arms were opened towards a little girl who was about 7 and it was me, I ran to Him, to the safety of His loving arms and loved me, He does. I was desperate there’s was nothing but God showing up or me leaving this earth but I knew that if I wanted Him to show up I had to show Him how badly I needed Him to come into my life. I did it the radical way, the reckless, the abnormal, the outrageous, the most extreme way I could think of calling on Jesus because really dying on the cross for me was just all of those things and more, I was ready to show Him too that if I had another chance at life I’d live it in the light. Stop running from God, Stop running to toxic relationships, toxic love, toxic habits, toxic dependencies, toxic ideas, toxic thoughts, toxic emotions, toxic expectations, toxic Idols, toxic friendships, stop running to a toxic life that will only bring sorrow, resentment, anger, anxiety and hopelessness. Jesus is waiting and His arms are wide open for you. The only thing you have to lose is the darkness.

Abba, my wonderful loving Abba. My heart rejoices and skips a beat at the thought of your unconditional love and forgiveness, faithful you are yesterday today and forever. Here I am, make me the light that shines thru the depth of darkness and brings life to that which has none. Lord, make me yours and guide my life in the direction of eternity. I want to be radical, reckless, outrageous, bold in this world for your Glory. In your love to show others the same amazing grace and compassion you had for me that I may have for those who need it. Break me, search me, refine me, let my hands hold the fire of your Spirit. Those who prayed this prayer now, Lord, show them, reveal yourself to them who you are, amaze them. Let the fire fall on them right now. In Jesus name Amen.

How He Loves Us…

Romans 8:35, 37-39

Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean He no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? … No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us. And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow — not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below — indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

1 John 4:18

Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced His perfect love.

The other day I had a busy morning/afternoon, when I finally had some time to sit down, I sighed and I said in my head, “God, I’m so glad you know everything about me, I don’t have to worry about a lot when I trust you”. I was feeling physically exhausted and I really didn’t have much energy for anything but the night before I was led by the Spirit to do some errands that I was leaving for the next day. Well, wouldn’t you know, I wouldn’t have been able to because of how I was feeling but guess what? God knew, not only did He know but I was so grateful to be in sync with Him that it was so easy to just be led by Him, no questions, just pure faith in knowing that He knows the plans He has for me and that I don’t need to worry about tomorrow. If we would just be willing to hand over to God our day and truly trust that He knows best, because He does, how much more rest would you get? How much more peace would you experience? All I can say is, Oh! How He loves us!

Father, today I want to thank you for all that you do. For sending your only son to die on that cross for me and for sending the Holy Spirit to be my helper. I ask that you allow today for me to see how truly loved and favored I am by you. I know that at times I allow other people’s opinions of me to get into my thoughts and into my heart but today Father I want it to be different, I want your thoughts and promises to be what drives me and give me Joy, In Jesus name Amen.

The Source…

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

John 14:6

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

John 14:16-18

And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.

Well, it’s only Tuesday. I’ve had to make some important health decisions, I’m just glad that I never have to do them alone because the Holy Spirit is always there to hold my hand and guide the way. Have you ever felt like you were on a rollercoaster in this life? I know I have. I have been on the rollercoaster unsaved and saved and let me tell you, what a difference! I used to have so much anxiety when it came to making decisions, I always seemed to not know what to do about anything. I also, never consulted God, I always called my best cousin, not that there’s anything wrong with that, but if I really think about it, well, she didn’t know either. It wasn’t until years later when I met a wonderful mentor that totally is one of most beloved friends now, that I learned that God was always available for my questions and concerns about anything and not only that but He already knew what I was going to say AND He already knew what was going to happen. The Source! He is the Source! When you need something to get done, when you need answers, when you need action, when you need urgency, the obvious is to go to the Source! I can say with great confidence that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. The worldly rollercoaster I used to hop on had no ending, all I felt was my heart raising, fear and loneliness. The heavenly rollercoaster I’m on stops at eternal life, my heart is at peace, there’s no room for fear because faith over takes it and I’m not alone because Jesus is sitting right next to me and If I look back at the car behind me, my Spiritual family is there too! Why don’t you get off that ride you’re on and pray with me right now.

Father please forgive my stubbornness, for always putting you second when you should be first, for seeking answers in places where there are none. I want you to be My source for everything. Jesus sit next to me while I ride this life and hold my hand and guide me until I arrive at my destination. I am not afraid because I know you’re the one in control. Thank you Jesus for never leaving my side. In Jesus name Amen.

Are you Saul or Samuel?…

1 Samuel 3:5-10
And he ran to Eli and said, “Here I am; you called me.” But Eli said, “I did not call; go back and lie down.” So he went and lay down. Again the Lord called, “Samuel!” And Samuel got up and went to Eli and said, “Here I am; you called me.” “My son,” Eli said, “I did not call; go back and lie down.” Now Samuel did not yet know the Lord: The word of the Lord had not yet been revealed to him. A third time the Lord called, “Samuel!” And Samuel got up and went to Eli and said, “Here I am; you called me.” Then Eli realized that the Lord was calling the boy. So Eli told Samuel, “Go and lie down, and if he calls you, say, ‘Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.’ ” So Samuel went and lay down in his place. The Lord came and stood there, calling as at the other times, “Samuel! Samuel!” Then Samuel said, “Speak, for your servant is listening.”

1Samuel 15:30-33
Saul replied, “I have sinned.(AH) But please honor(AI) me before the elders of my people and before Israel; come back with me, so that I may worship the Lord your God.” 31 So Samuel went back with Saul, and Saul worshiped the Lord.
32 Then Samuel said, “Bring me Agag king of the Amalekites.”
Agag came to him in chains.[c] And he thought, “Surely the bitterness of death is past.”
33 But Samuel said,
“As your sword has made women childless,
    so will your mother be childless among women.”
And Samuel put Agag to death before the Lord at Gilgal.



Remember Samuel? To me Samuel represents God’s order, God’s instruction, God’s plans, God’s detail, God’s perfection. Remember when God told Samuel to tell Saul he was to kill every Amekelite? And he didn’t. Then Samuel came and told him how bad he messed up. What was Saul thinking? He certainly wasn’t doing it out of evil, he was going to have an offering for God after all. Well, I guess that doesn’t matter does it. We owe God nothing, what can we possibly give him that He hasn’t created. I wonder if Saul was acting on his own intuition, (did that hit you) sometimes we tend to cross our wires when it comes to following God’s instruction and plan or acting on our own behalf. Samuel knew how to follow God’s instruction, how do we know, well, right after letting Saul know of the travesty he had caused he called for the king and he took his sword and killed him. He didn’t explain himself, he didn’t have any word to say, simply God had spoken and Saul didn’t follow through, therefore leaving Samuel to act on what God had instructed. I can totally picture Samuel faithful to God just fuming at the report that Saul didn’t follow God’s plan. I can see Samuel walking in and just doing exactly what God wanted him to do without a doubt and without lingering. Do you linger? After you hear God speak? Has he ever asked you to do something or say something and you lingered? Or waited around to see if it was really God (which in most cases He will ask us to do what we least want to do) Have you ever started to follow God’s instruction and then threw in your two cents? Or thought if you changed something it would be better? I know I have. Didn’t turn out well, because I didn’t follow the instruction and because honestly how is my plan better than my Creators. How do we become like Samuel? We do what he did. Even at the beginning Samuel didn’t recognize God’s voice, but when he was told it was God and then God called again, he answered. If we’re not sure if it’s God’s voice it’s okay to ask for guidance and it’s okay to ask God to keep calling our name, but we must always answer, unwavering of what our instructions are. What happens when we do? We become aligned with our Creator, we leave room for Him to move in our lives and He  anoints us to greater things. Whatever God is asking you to do, do it. If He’s been calling your name and you haven’t answered, ask Him to call you one more time and be prepared to say, Speak, for your servant is listening. It’s all starts at the beginning of God’s instruction.
Father in Heaven, Most high God, wonderful Creator, forgive me for interfering in your plans, forgive me for not answering to your call immediately, forgive me for running towards other things faster than I do to you. Lord I am here to say, Speak. Lord give the wisdom and discernment I need to follow through on your commands. I want to hear your voice so distinctly that I do not miss it. I thank you and I receive your forgiveness because that is who you are. Thank you. In Jesus name Amen.

Welcome…

Ephesians 2:8
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Titus 2:11
For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people.
1 Timothy 4:12
Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity.
Philippians 4:9
Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
Proverbs 22:6
Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it.
Luke 15:10
In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”

Has God ever given you a revelation that kind of just stopped you in your tracks and made you ask for forgiveness for your foolishness. Today, as I worshipped I had a  reminder of one. When I started my walk of faith I remember I would get so upset when I’d be praying or in worship and someone would interrupt me (since then I’ve done a lot of maturing in Christ 😉). I had this look on my face and attitude that totally didn’t reflect what I was doing. One day, the Holy Spirit revealed to me how quick I was able to step out of grace and into unholy feelings, and that instead of putting that out there and acting like I was the only one holy enough to pray or worship, I should invite them to join me. There was rejection I’m doing so, and then one day there wasn’t from one person and really if only one, that’s enough for heaven to celebrate. Today, I encourage you that If there’s ever an interruption in the middle of your prayer, worship or bible reading you have extend that gift to that person, because it might just be a heavenly interruption, it might just be that that person was suppose to walk in on something that could absolutely change their lives.

Lord, please forgive me for my foolishness, forgive me when I think that I am right when I am wrong. Forgive .e because sometimes I interfere with your heavenly set ups. Lord I humble .myself before you and as you have shown me grace through out my life, I ask that you show me how to show that grave towards others. In Jesus name Amen.

Peace…

Philippians 4:6-7Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

2 Corinthians 13:11

Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.

2 Thessalonians 3:16

Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.

Galatians 5:22

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,

Do you have inner peace? For example, when all is quiet around you, is your mind quiet also or are your thoughts racing? Even when things around you have slowed down, do you feel like you didn’t get off the rollercoaster? No matter, how many smiling picture you show, how many positive quotes you post and how many times you tell yourself and others that you’re okay and that you’re going forward, are you still in the same place (emotionally) are you still alone, are you still not genuinely filled with true joy. If that’s you, I have old news to share, Only God can fill that empty space, that missing puzzle, only he can bring you true Joy, indescribable peace,unimaginable love and unconditional forgiveness. What do you have to do? Only believe in Him, trust in Him, talk to Him, build a relationship and make Him your priority, make Him you’re foundation. How? Start with talking to Him, He is your Heavenly Father who delights in you. Start reading the bible, let His words truly sink into your heart. There’s no win or lose with Him, there’s only winning. He will not fail you, when you earnestly seek Him. If you’ve tried everything and even over and over and you’re still sad, lonely, angry, disappointed, resentful, stuck, I dare you to try something different, something refreshing, something that’ll quench that thirst so you never thirst again for this world, for man’s love, for man’s riches, for man’s temporary satisfaction, for man’s deceiving calm. Come to the Altar, He is waiting for you right now.

Father, I come to you, just me, I have nothing that I can offer but my hands lifted up to you, my heart open that you may heal it, please help me, get rid of anything and anyone who stops me from really getting to know you, I’ve sacrifice too long for this world, I need an exit a way to true salvation. Lord, here I am, I will believe, I will trust you. In Jesus name Amen.

When HE’S First…

Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.


My soul is well when I put God first.
My spirit is at peace when I put God first.
My life has order and meaning when I put God first.
My heart is full of love when I put God first.
My thoughts are full of promise when I put God first.
My mind is clear when I put God first.
My words are full of power when I put God first.
My prayers have answers when I put God first.

My life is eternal when I put God first

He loves you, even now…

John 16:7
But very truly I tell you, it is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Advocate will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you.

1John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Romans 8:35
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Psalms 31:7
I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.

You don’t have to be perfect to come before God. Think about it, He created you, He knows you, He knows what you’re thinking before you do, so God knows what your trespasses are. God tells us that He sent his only son to die on the cross for us because He loved us, despite of our sinful nature. He made us, He knows us. He knows that troubles are going to come, temptations are going to come, sadness, anger, all that stuff that will try to separate us from the Love of God. BUT, His Grace, yes! His grace is sufficient. Not only does He know that we’re going to have troubles but He has ever so masterfully orchestrated a way out for us. The Holy Spirit was left to us after Jesus ascended, to be our helper. As believers we have really one place to go when all seems to go wrong and that is to the secret place where we can freely, without judgment or condemnation call in the Holy Spirit, our Helper. Time and time again the Lord tells us to call on Him, to open the door and He will dine with us, to seek Him. Let our spirits not be troubled but pray without ceasing. The only thing we need to bring to Him is our heart and our willingness.
Father, thank you so much for being so patient with me. When I forget how graceful and loving you are, I alone condemn myself forgetting how forgiving you are. Lord, I bring it all to you…all that stops me from calling on your name, all that stops me from opening the door, all that stops me from seeking you. Here I am, forgive me. Rescue me from myself and restore me, purify me. I love you, I trust you. In Jesus name. Amen.