Hello Readers, I am still here, I took some time off to refresh and attend to somethings that needed attending 😉. Just wanted to check in ✔️ and say that I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving 🦃with lots of 💕 and family👨👩👧👦. For myself, it was a little difficult🥺 and different🤔, thinking of the loved ones we lost this last year💔, nevertheless God continues to be good and faithful and I also find joy👩🏻🦰 in that. Wow, it’s December🎄 already and I don’t know about you but I am definitely looking forward to the new year🎇, not because I’m trying to escape this past year but because I know that God has future and a hope for each one of us! 🎉🎊 Lots of changes to my schedule 📆 next year, so I’ll definitely have to make some time ⌚ to write and keep nurturing this amazing gift ✍🏻 that God has allowed me to exercise thru blog 💻. With that said, Have a wonderful December, when things are tough, don’t give up, set yourself aside and talk to God and if you don’t know what to say then just sit in the still and wait for him to speak. As always, I am here reading comments and emails, send your prayer requests and it any thoughts or questions. God bless you readers! 🙏🏻❤️
I’m not a fixer of people or problems, if I ever choose to put myself in a place where I can help guide someone In a better situation or to give hope to an impossible situation, it’s only because I know the one who can. I know this first hand because God has taken me out of the darkness and into the light and He has lifted me over quicksand, He has pulled me out of the depths of despair and He has given me life in the midst of death. God of Abraham, God of Isaac and Jacob, the same today, the same tomorrow and forever more, the God of Esther, Sara and David that same God who showed mercy and grace to them has shown the same for me. The God who loves unconditionally and forgives those who ask for forgiveness, the God who guides and imparts wisdom, the God who comes in and dines with you because when He knocked you opened the door, This amazing and sovereign God who directs with a father’s love and edifies you at the same time. My Father who is in heaven, He has saved me from myself and this world, He has shown me that there’s more to living and there’s more to Him. I don’t know who this is for but if you’re in a place where you see no hope, where you feel you can’t be forgiven, a place where it’s lonely or too dark to see, I urge you to call out His name, the King of Kings, Jesus. When He shows up hold on to His hand and let Him fill you with hope, peace and love.
Father, you’re the one who knows why this was written today, you’re the one who sees that person right now, reading and praying and crying and needing you. Lord I ask that you show up right now, right this moment, that one who needs strength, the one who needs compassion, that one who needs a miracle, that one who needs a way out, that one who is lonely, the one who needs a father, show up right now, I know you are. I believe you are. Thank you amazing, wonderfull Father. In Jesus name Amen.
If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:1-6, 8-13 NIV
Before I read my devotional today, the word love kept popping in my head, I then asked the Holy Spirit to show me and guide me in this message. Later that day I was with someone who displayed the complete opposite of what love is according to God, and as I read my devotional now and read 1 Corinthians 13, I was overwhelmed with emotions because there are so many moments in our lives where we miss the mark, we operate so easily and fluidly in negative emotions and we so boldly display them like they’re something to be proud of but when do we do that with love? It took me back to the person who has said they loved me and in their own way I guess I believe that they do but the tone, the words don’t display God’s description of love. Honestly, it makes me sad, but so clearly I see now that it’s just because we don’t intentionally practice it. So I dare you today to start walking, talking, listening, moving in love, boldly love those who mistreat you and let God’s love transform you.
Father, I come to you and I ask you to forgive me, if at any time I have stepped out of love into something that separates me from you, I ask you fill me with boldness and courage to love those who reject love and are hard to love. It is not by my strength but yours that I do all these things that make me the light of the world. For your glory always. In Jesus name Amen.
If my fire is fading, throw me on the bones
If my light is dim, throw me on the bones
If I am parched, throw me on the bones
If I am sedated, throw me on the bones
If I am weak, throw me on the bones
If I am burdened, throw me on the bones
If I am sick, throw me on the bones
If my flesh is weak, throw me on the bones
If I am lost, throw me on the bones
If I am dead, throw me on the bones
Throw me on the bones of Elisha and fill my cup with oil, On the bones of Elisha where life takes death, On the bones of Elisha where you’re imprint stays even after bones are dry. On the bones of Elisha where no one senses you unless they touch. On the bones of Elisha, that one day my bones become the home of your powerul being, so that even when all that stays are my bones on this earth , they still manifest your Glory. Lord, throw me on the bones of Elisha, give me a double portion and let my life and then my bones honor and glorify you forever and ever.
Sometimes we get so busy that we forget to set apart some time to refresh and reenergize, not only our physical but our spiritual too. Right now in this moment, I feel very tired, I feel like I need a break, some time apart with God. Immediately Matthew 11:29 came to mind and as I read it over and over I could feel the heaviness lift. Have you ever lifted something that was heavier than you expected and someone came running to help you carry it, that immediate sense of relief, gladness and gratitude comes as that person is heading towards you maybe even with their hands out ready to help. Well, when times get heavy and your load is too much to bare, there’s one name that you can always call on and that’s Jesus, and He will run towards you with his arms extended towards you and he will carry that weight for you. So find rest in your soul as you call on Jesus. I pray that every single person who reads this now, may a covering of peace fall on you and a breeze of calm enter your being, that you may feel Jesus at your side as He ever so lovingly offers his yoke.
Heavenly Father, hear my prayer. I’m feeling tired and weary. I come to you because I know that there is no one that can lift me up the way you do. I call on you because I know that there’s nothing you wouldn’t do for me. I feel so tired, but I know that in my weakness you are strong. My chest feels heavy, but I know that you sent your only son to carry the weight for me. I know that you make me lie down in green pastures and you lead me besides the still waters. My physical body is tired but my spirit is strong in you Lord. Abba, I trust you, not in my circumstances or what I see and hear, but I trust you and the promises you give. I surrender all that I feel to you now and receive from you the peace that surpasses all understanding. I receive your forgiveness and most of all I receive your love. Thank you for creating me, in Jesus name Amen.
Have you ever received bad news? I think we all have, it seems to be one of those things that is just part of life, something’s are just inedible. As I’ve matured in the Lord I’ve learned that it’s so important to pay attention to ourselves and how we receive not so good news, in other words how we react and how it makes us feel. We’re humans with feelings I think God understands that, so it’s not bad to feel a negative feeling, it’s how long you linger in that feeling and how you get out of it. For me, when I used to hear bad news I would just sink into the floor, whether small or big it was just something I couldn’t bare, I was raised to just let emotions fly and do whatever they wanted even to the point of letting them take over my entire being.
Now, I don’t live in that fear, the fear of the unknown, of not having control, of not having the solution, I live in a place of peace, a place where when trials arise I don’t sink into the floor, instead I arise as well, and My Creator with me. It’s so important to examine ourselves and take time to reflect on those times when our faith shrinks just a little and how to be able to make it rise above it all, the only way is through His word. Read and re-read if you must all the promises He has made and remember how faithful He is, how much He loves you and He will never forsake you. Trials will come that’s for sure, we have an enemy that never tires of inflicting pain, BUT we have an amazing God who stands before us, behinds us and all around us. Praise God. So, now take time, reflect on where you live, In panic of the uncertainty or peace in God’s will.
Father God, I come to you and just surrender all that fear that makes my mind race into thoughts that are against what you have proclaimed for me. I ask for your forgiveness if there is something that I am missing because I am too busy to get into your word. Lord I ask that you guide me and give me wisdom so that I may live in your peace when trials come. Lord I trust you, I love you and I always want to be in your will. In Jesus name Amen.
Last week I entered a writing challenge with 5 prompts for each day of the week, I wanted to share that with you today. I hope you have a blessed day!
It’s been such a long weekend for me, I just wanted to share a testimony, this happened Saturday and Sunday. I was flying back home from Oregon Saturday night, so many little things happened that night that getting to the airport almost seemed like slow motion, not to mention once I arrived at the airport trying to find someone to help me to trying to get them to speak words I understood, 😆 it was a mess, finally getting through security was incredible that’s when I knew that I wasn’t going home that night. Then, when I tried to get help to getting another flight, I was scolded by the manager for being late, which I wasn’t really, but the point is he kept accusing me of something that wasn’t true, I tried explaining to him once and very rudely making a scene, rolling his eyes he wouldn’t stop saying it was my fault and not the airline, to which I felt so confused about because I had not once mentioned blamed to anyone, all I wanted was to get another flight. I was too exhausted and physically in pain to deal with this person who was not being reasonable, I immediately felt like I needed a pause, so I put my stuff down, I took a breath, and I said a quick prayer, Lord, I don’t know what’s happening, I had it all worked out and I’m not sure what to do or say to this person, please help me, I just need a flight home and some peace. The man looks at me and says, I can get you on another flight but first thing tomorrow morning no charge, just be here. Finally! Yes, I said, okay I got it. He gave my ticket I called my brother he came to pick me up, when I told my brother what happened he was more upset than I, on the way back home to my brother’s place, I thanked God and I blessed that person and I thanked him specifically for whatever it was that he had saved me from that night. The next morning, I was so exhausted from the night before and now I was two hours waiting for the plane to board, but still giving thanks to God because his plans are better. The person boarding the plane let’s me go first and as he hands me my ticket to board the plane he says, “I upgraded you to first class”, I almost cried on the plane, I was so exhausted that I couldn’t even defend myself from the airport person the night before, and so exhausted from waiting that morning, and all I could do was trust God. From then on, I could have not been helped more by the nicest people on the plane and once I arrived home. It was his love and faithfulness that took care of me in those times when I couldn’t do it myself. He knows the plans that he has for me, I trust him specially in those places where you are blindsided and winded. My obedience to let God fight for my justice, instead of me trying to interfere and find my own is what activated my faith in him to be able to step into my life and take control. Let God take control of your life for a while, trust him blindly, He won’t disappoint. Let him remind you and show you, that you are a child of the Most High God and that you most certain belong in First class.
Lord higher than you is none. There is none more faithful and loving. Please forgive me for allowing others or my surroundings tell me who I am, when your word clearly states that I am yours. Help me in those times when I can’t help myself. Give .w strength and courage when I have none. Help me to see what you see in me and help me embrace the blessing you have bestowed upon me. Lord I trust you. In Jesus name Amen.
Did the title throw you off a little? Well, let me elaborate. Many years ago before I was saved, I had a sort of spiritual awakening for a lack of a better term. I knew about God but I didn’t like religion and so I called myself spiritual. Yes, spiritual, what does that even mean? Now it seems a bit silly when I think about it. I guess, what I was trying to say was that I didn’t like religion, I didn’t want to be labeled a Christian, I didn’t want to follow anyone’s specific rules or guidelines to get closer to God. More specifically, I knew what some Christian based churches taught, which was baptism, fasting, praying, reading the bible and being part of a community, most of those things I mentioned I wasn’t willing to do, nor compromise about it. I literally prayed to God and said, I won’t get baptized and I won’t be part of a community where I have to serve or talk to anyone ( immature me), of course that only seemed to pull me farther apart from my purpose. Forward to present time, I’ve been baptized twice (once in the actual Jordan river) and have found an amazing community of people in my church that have welcome me in a way that I can’t explain with words but know in my heart was God sent. In my ” spiritual awakening” I had a long list of the things I didn’t want to do to get closer to God or to have peace in my heart and life, I had to many limitations and restrictions for God, all those things were walls that I had built myself to protect myself from the what if’s in my head, what if God isn’t real, what if the people at church hurt me, or lie to me, what if I’m not worthy or what If I open up and become vulnerable and I get taken advantage in my weakness. With all those walls, all those restrictions, all those conditions, getting closer to God and finding my purpose in this world was never going to work. So, I got lost in many religions, reading books, finding temples, yoga, magic, buddhism, healing myself affirmations, books on how to help myself find peace and all sorts of other stuff that only worked temporarily and when it went away left me feeling even worse. Where am I going with this, you can read all the self help books, all the autobiographies, you can do all the yoga and breathing exercises you want, WITHOUT GOD, IT WONT WORK! By no means am I saying reading self help books are bad, what I am saying (because it happened to me) is that the only way to start truly healing is to let your walls down, ask God to show you the truth. If Jesus is the your foundation, if God isnt number one in your life, and If you still have many conditions, you will never be truly happy. This life doesn’t work without God. Think about it, is there an area of your life where you just can’t seem to have peace in? Is there a wall? A condition you’re putting God? I know you want peace, I know you want to feel loved, appreciated, valued, noticed, I know you want to succeed, be fruitful, be blessed to be a blessing, I know you want to find your purpose, but I’m afraid it just won’t work without God. In my personal journey to findings who in was, I found that I can never walk this life again without my creator. I encourage you to let those walls fall and to just let God guide you into His will, let us pray.
My most amazing creator, my loving Father in heaven, I come to you, scared of the unknown, afraid of what you might reveal to me, afraid of getting hurt, afraid that I am not worthy, afraid that I don’t have enough faith, overwhelmed by this place I’m in because no matter how much I try to control or manipulate those things around me it just doesn’t bring peace. I am lost, I am drowning in a sea of hopelessness and I know that I am stubborn and I ask for forgiveness, I can’t do this alone anymore, I know that anything in my life will not work if you’re not involved. So, I’m inviting you into my life, into my heart, that you may search me and find within me not only that unwillingness to give my life completely to you but anything else that is keeping me from fulfilling my true purpose in your will and cast it out so that I may be delivered into your wonderful freedom and love. I am yours, and I know that without you, it just won’t work. In Jesus name Amen.
Today I wanted to share with you something that is very intimate for me, something that I treasure in my heart and is forever engraved in my thoughts.
When I was sick (cancer) and doctors didn’t know what was wrong and I knew something was very wrong, I felt death upon me as days, weeks and months passed and still no answer to my health deteriorating. It was a year exactly when I finally ended up one more time in the E.R and I was told that I had a tumor (no cancer, yet) I was immediately given a date for surgery which was just days away, I remember them saying that they couldn’t do a biopsy because if it was cancer then they would risk transferring it into other parts of my body. A month later, I was asked to meet with a specialist at the hospital which I did, I sat in the room waiting alone, as she walked in and sat in her chair, she turns and says to me that I have to undergo aggressive chemotherapy treatment, the tumor had been in my body way too long and developed cancer cells, the tumor had grown 11.8 inches and it touched and pushed my organs which caused me a lot of discomfort. I remember going back in my head and thinking of the day I knew there was something wrong but I didn’t know what, I remember asking God to reveal to me the illness, I asked Him to guide me to the right doctors, I asked Him to fill me with His courage and to help my family when I shared the news. That whole entire time, from the day I knew something was wrong to finding out what it was and what needed to be done, not once was I alone. God had sent someone who held my hand through the pain, through the confusion of not knowing what was wrong, through feeling of death at my door, through having to call two of my family members and say my will. He sent someone who even though at times I could not even speak a word from being overwhelmed with the news, just sat there in the quiet times with me. Someone who held my hand during the treatments, who was always front and center when I opened my eyes after having taking an ivy of Benadryl to help with the side effects of chemotherapy. He made sure I got to my treatments on time because if I didn’t I would have to start all over (and boy, was there obstacles getting me there). Someone who reassured me every step of the way that no matter what He would never leave my side. Someone who held me as my hair fell off my head in big chunks, someone who never judged me as a raged from the treatment messing with my thoughts and emotions. Someone who still saw the beauty inside when I felt tired, worn, distorted and ugly. He would talk until I fell asleep and He reminded me of who I was to God. That someone is MY Jesus.
This testimony is the short version, so many unbelievable things and incredible things happened in that journey but the point of this short story is, My Jesus came through. I called on Him everyday, and everyday He showed up. Are you in a place where you need to call Your Jesus? I promise He will show up. No matter how big or small your situation, (mine just happened to be big at that time) He will show up when you call on Him with all your heart. Let us pray,
My Jesus, please forgive me if I’ve been trying to do life all in my own. I need you to meet me where I am, Jesus the name above every other name. Jesus, King of Kings, Jesus, my savior, my comforter, my provider, my healer, my Lord. I call on you because I am weak right now, because I don’t have the answers, because I don’t have the solutions, because I am not strong, but You are. Here I am. I can’t do this on my own, I am tired, I don’t know where to go. Jesus, I know you hear me, I lift my hands to you and receive your rest and your peace. I receive your love, and your guidance. I need you in my life right now, I surrender my heart, mind and soul to you, let me shine for you, let me praise your name now because you have already triumphed, you already have the victory. Thank you, I love you. In your name I pray, Amen.