Have you ever received bad news? I think we all have, it seems to be one of those things that is just part of life, something’s are just inedible. As I’ve matured in the Lord I’ve learned that it’s so important to pay attention to ourselves and how we receive not so good news, in other words how we react and how it makes us feel. We’re humans with feelings I think God understands that, so it’s not bad to feel a negative feeling, it’s how long you linger in that feeling and how you get out of it. For me, when I used to hear bad news I would just sink into the floor, whether small or big it was just something I couldn’t bare, I was raised to just let emotions fly and do whatever they wanted even to the point of letting them take over my entire being.
Now, I don’t live in that fear, the fear of the unknown, of not having control, of not having the solution, I live in a place of peace, a place where when trials arise I don’t sink into the floor, instead I arise as well, and My Creator with me. It’s so important to examine ourselves and take time to reflect on those times when our faith shrinks just a little and how to be able to make it rise above it all, the only way is through His word. Read and re-read if you must all the promises He has made and remember how faithful He is, how much He loves you and He will never forsake you. Trials will come that’s for sure, we have an enemy that never tires of inflicting pain, BUT we have an amazing God who stands before us, behinds us and all around us. Praise God. So, now take time, reflect on where you live, In panic of the uncertainty or peace in God’s will.
Father God, I come to you and just surrender all that fear that makes my mind race into thoughts that are against what you have proclaimed for me. I ask for your forgiveness if there is something that I am missing because I am too busy to get into your word. Lord I ask that you guide me and give me wisdom so that I may live in your peace when trials come. Lord I trust you, I love you and I always want to be in your will. In Jesus name Amen.
It’s been such a long weekend for me, I just wanted to share a testimony, this happened Saturday and Sunday. I was flying back home from Oregon Saturday night, so many little things happened that night that getting to the airport almost seemed like slow motion, not to mention once I arrived at the airport trying to find someone to help me to trying to get them to speak words I understood, 😆 it was a mess, finally getting through security was incredible that’s when I knew that I wasn’t going home that night. Then, when I tried to get help to getting another flight, I was scolded by the manager for being late, which I wasn’t really, but the point is he kept accusing me of something that wasn’t true, I tried explaining to him once and very rudely making a scene, rolling his eyes he wouldn’t stop saying it was my fault and not the airline, to which I felt so confused about because I had not once mentioned blamed to anyone, all I wanted was to get another flight. I was too exhausted and physically in pain to deal with this person who was not being reasonable, I immediately felt like I needed a pause, so I put my stuff down, I took a breath, and I said a quick prayer, Lord, I don’t know what’s happening, I had it all worked out and I’m not sure what to do or say to this person, please help me, I just need a flight home and some peace. The man looks at me and says, I can get you on another flight but first thing tomorrow morning no charge, just be here. Finally! Yes, I said, okay I got it. He gave my ticket I called my brother he came to pick me up, when I told my brother what happened he was more upset than I, on the way back home to my brother’s place, I thanked God and I blessed that person and I thanked him specifically for whatever it was that he had saved me from that night. The next morning, I was so exhausted from the night before and now I was two hours waiting for the plane to board, but still giving thanks to God because his plans are better. The person boarding the plane let’s me go first and as he hands me my ticket to board the plane he says, “I upgraded you to first class”, I almost cried on the plane, I was so exhausted that I couldn’t even defend myself from the airport person the night before, and so exhausted from waiting that morning, and all I could do was trust God. From then on, I could have not been helped more by the nicest people on the plane and once I arrived home. It was his love and faithfulness that took care of me in those times when I couldn’t do it myself. He knows the plans that he has for me, I trust him specially in those places where you are blindsided and winded. My obedience to let God fight for my justice, instead of me trying to interfere and find my own is what activated my faith in him to be able to step into my life and take control. Let God take control of your life for a while, trust him blindly, He won’t disappoint. Let him remind you and show you, that you are a child of the Most High God and that you most certain belong in First class.
Lord higher than you is none. There is none more faithful and loving. Please forgive me for allowing others or my surroundings tell me who I am, when your word clearly states that I am yours. Help me in those times when I can’t help myself. Give .w strength and courage when I have none. Help me to see what you see in me and help me embrace the blessing you have bestowed upon me. Lord I trust you. In Jesus name Amen.
Did the title throw you off a little? Well, let me elaborate. Many years ago before I was saved, I had a sort of spiritual awakening for a lack of a better term. I knew about God but I didn’t like religion and so I called myself spiritual. Yes, spiritual, what does that even mean? Now it seems a bit silly when I think about it. I guess, what I was trying to say was that I didn’t like religion, I didn’t want to be labeled a Christian, I didn’t want to follow anyone’s specific rules or guidelines to get closer to God. More specifically, I knew what some Christian based churches taught, which was baptism, fasting, praying, reading the bible and being part of a community, most of those things I mentioned I wasn’t willing to do, nor compromise about it. I literally prayed to God and said, I won’t get baptized and I won’t be part of a community where I have to serve or talk to anyone ( immature me), of course that only seemed to pull me farther apart from my purpose. Forward to present time, I’ve been baptized twice (once in the actual Jordan river) and have found an amazing community of people in my church that have welcome me in a way that I can’t explain with words but know in my heart was God sent. In my ” spiritual awakening” I had a long list of the things I didn’t want to do to get closer to God or to have peace in my heart and life, I had to many limitations and restrictions for God, all those things were walls that I had built myself to protect myself from the what if’s in my head, what if God isn’t real, what if the people at church hurt me, or lie to me, what if I’m not worthy or what If I open up and become vulnerable and I get taken advantage in my weakness. With all those walls, all those restrictions, all those conditions, getting closer to God and finding my purpose in this world was never going to work. So, I got lost in many religions, reading books, finding temples, yoga, magic, buddhism, healing myself affirmations, books on how to help myself find peace and all sorts of other stuff that only worked temporarily and when it went away left me feeling even worse. Where am I going with this, you can read all the self help books, all the autobiographies, you can do all the yoga and breathing exercises you want, WITHOUT GOD, IT WONT WORK! By no means am I saying reading self help books are bad, what I am saying (because it happened to me) is that the only way to start truly healing is to let your walls down, ask God to show you the truth. If Jesus is the your foundation, if God isnt number one in your life, and If you still have many conditions, you will never be truly happy. This life doesn’t work without God. Think about it, is there an area of your life where you just can’t seem to have peace in? Is there a wall? A condition you’re putting God? I know you want peace, I know you want to feel loved, appreciated, valued, noticed, I know you want to succeed, be fruitful, be blessed to be a blessing, I know you want to find your purpose, but I’m afraid it just won’t work without God. In my personal journey to findings who in was, I found that I can never walk this life again without my creator. I encourage you to let those walls fall and to just let God guide you into His will, let us pray.
My most amazing creator, my loving Father in heaven, I come to you, scared of the unknown, afraid of what you might reveal to me, afraid of getting hurt, afraid that I am not worthy, afraid that I don’t have enough faith, overwhelmed by this place I’m in because no matter how much I try to control or manipulate those things around me it just doesn’t bring peace. I am lost, I am drowning in a sea of hopelessness and I know that I am stubborn and I ask for forgiveness, I can’t do this alone anymore, I know that anything in my life will not work if you’re not involved. So, I’m inviting you into my life, into my heart, that you may search me and find within me not only that unwillingness to give my life completely to you but anything else that is keeping me from fulfilling my true purpose in your will and cast it out so that I may be delivered into your wonderful freedom and love. I am yours, and I know that without you, it just won’t work. In Jesus name Amen.