In the Garden of Gethsemane…

Matthew 26:36-37

Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled.

Matthew 26:38-39

Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

Matthew 26:42

He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”

Have you been to the garden of Gethsemane? Have you prayed like Jesus prayed at the garden? I have. Many times.

This whole chapter has so many little treasures that we can take for ourselves and store as wisdom in our hearts but I want to focus today on how Jesus’ priority was to pray, not only that but the urgency Hee had to make sure that His disciples knew that praying with Him was essential. Jesus teaches us what to do when we’re in a place of sorrow and trouble. First, He lets us know not to be alone, as He Himself took two disciples with Him as He instructed them to sit while He went “over there”. I remember one night I was in a place of sorrow and trouble and I didn’t know what to do, (this was a very long time ago before I was saved) and I remember asking God for help at that time as best as I could with the little knowledge I had but what I remember also is that I showed up at one of my dearest friends house and I sat on her couch and all I did was cry as she sat across from me and we didn’t say a word to each other. To know that in her heart she was also praying and being there for me in the only way she knew how was such comfort. I think Jesus was telling us that there will be times when we need to reach out for our own good as well as to be models to those who love Him as well. Second, we shouldn’t be afraid to ask God to help us in anyway. Jesus boldly asked God to remove that which was causing Him great sorrow to the point of death. Jesus knew that God was ever so capable and it wasn’t in vain to ask, at the same time He knew that as long as it was God’s will no matter what it would be, He wouldn’t be alone. Just recently, a few times I may add in my times of pain while in recovery of surgery I’ve made a similar prayer, “God take this pain away but let your will be done”, knowing that even IF he didn’t somehow he would also give peace to my heart and spirit. Lastly, I just want to encourage you to come before our God, cry out to Him in all your sorrow, your trouble and let Him take control of that which makes your heart ache.

Lord, sometimes in the midst of sorrow and trouble and pain we get so blinded by what our flesh feels and it seems almost unbearable but I ask you Lord that you hear my cry and that no matter what it is you bring down your will into my heart. Abba, I receive you and whatever plans you have for my life and I do not worry because I know you see me. Here I am, Lord help me in my need. Thank you in advance for being so faithful and so willing always. In Jesus name Amen.

How long will you stay in the belly of the whale…?

Jonah 1:17
Now the Lord provided a huge fish to swallow Jonah, and Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.

Jonah 2:1-9
From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the Lord his God. He said: “In my distress I called to the Lord, and he answered me. From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help, and you listened to my cry. You hurled me into the depths, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me. I said, ‘I have been banished from your sight; yet I will look again toward your holy temple.’ The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head. To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But you, Lord my God, brought my life up from the pit. “When my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, Lord, and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple. “Those who cling to worthless idols turn away from God’s love for them. But I, with shouts of grateful praise, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good. I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the Lord.’ ”

Ephesians.3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

James 4:10
Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.


I can’t even fathom sometimes how truly great God is and how willing and for us He continues to faithfully be towards us even in the times when we reject Him. I was thinking about how some of us use so much energy to run the opposite way of God, when it’s so much easier to just flow in His grace. Makes me wonder what Jonah was thinking or feeling that would make him so bitter towards God. I wonder if he prayed and didn’t like God’s respond, or if the responsibility of being a prophet was too much, or if he had a loss and couldn’t find the why, maybe he was just simply tired. One thing was clear though, He didn’t like that God showed mercy towards his enemies (makes me wonder if Jonah ever thought why them and not me). Whatever was going on his heart was definitely affecting his relationship with God, yet God went after him trying to show Jonah the forgiveness He brings to us even when we don’t deserve it. Three days and three nights Jonah was in the whales belly and I wonder if he was in the whale that long because it took him that long to make that bold prayer (even though it wasn’t ideal, leave that for another time). Surrending is never easy, I know I’ve surrendered even when I still felt like I was treated unfairly, like a bratty child with a parent. Nevertheless, like Jonah, I know the God who created me, created the seas and the dry land, a merciful, forgiving, a true Savior of my life, therefore, I knew that surrendering and humbling myself was the way to go. I want to ask you something. How long will you stay in the belly of the whale? How long will you sulk? How long will it take for you to surrender? How many times will God have to show you how much He loves you? Oh! Our God is ever so willing. Willing to say yes to whatever we ask in agreement with His will. I tell you, whatever that “thing” is that stands between you and God, bring it to the throne, lay it down, surrender it, bitterness, disappointment, sadness, loss, anger, jealousy, betrayal, hate, arrogance, pride, whatever it is, I urge you not to waste anymore time and let God start healing your heart from all that overtakes it and brings you to a place of uncertainty and bitterness. Don’t let pride rob you of what already belongs to you. God wants to show you His great mercy and grace, shower you with love and favor. Make that prayer, surrender.

Father God, I came boldly to surrender all that I’m feeling and it isn’t all good and positive but I know that you are the only one that can change a heart. I don’t want to run from you anymore, I don’t want to have bitterness in my heart, I surrender my ego, my pride, my all to you who knows me like no one else and who loves me unconditionally, you who forgives without condemnation. I accept your word, your love, your forgiveness, your grace. Thank you for showing me mercy and most of all for allowing me to surrender over and over. Holy Spirit be my guide in the Lord’s path, shine the light in the way I should go that I may never be lost. Thank you Abba. In Jesus name Amen.

Until God…

Philippians 1:6

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

It’s been a week full of commotion (but I want to think it was mostly full of prayer 🙏🏻❣️). Let me start by saying, I’m less than a week into a hysterectomy recovery (Ovarian Cancer survivor, 8 yrs. In remission but I don’t have to worry about that anymore), it’s been a lot, therefore I won’t have a lot to say this week, but just a quick praise report🙌🏻. While in surgery, I stopped breathing, my heart actually stopped, from what I look like (bruises and all) they brought me back pretty quickly and obviously still here (Praise God☝🏻🙏🏻) and thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️ and may God bless 🙏🏻 you abundantly my Worshipwalk Church family and all those who literally took time aside to pray for God to see me through. So, My brother asked me if I saw the light (🤔) I did not, now I’m wondering why I didn’t (🤔 🥴). So, yeah anyway, God is good, I am still here because He wants me here, nothing can take me out without His consent, not someone else’s mistake, not my own mistakes, not someone else’s will or wish or desire, not the enemy who likes to prowl like a roaring lion. I will be here living and breathing until the day that THE LORD Himself calls me to heaven ☁️.  Today, I will just share a song that was in my thoughts, heart and lips during my stay in the hospital. Thank you all for reading this. Jesus Loves you!❣️ (Also, thank you to the Hospital Staff if you’re reading this! 😉)

Click below for song 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻

When You Stop Running…

Jeremiah 10:12-13

“But God made the earth by his power, and he preserves it by his wisdom. With his own understanding, he stretched out the heavens. When he speaks in the thunder, the heavens roar with rain. He causes the clouds to rise over the earth. He sends the lightning with the rain and releases the wind from his storehouses.”

Luke 1:35

“The angel replied,” The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So, the baby to be born will be holy, and he will be called the Son of God. “

Romans 15:13

“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.”

Psalms 139:7-10

Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.

Jonah 1:1-3

Now the word of the Lord came to Jonah the son of Amittai, saying, “Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it, for their evil has come up before me.” But Jonah rose to flee to Tarshish from the presence of the Lord. He went down to Joppa and found a ship going to Tarshish. So he paid the fare and went on board, to go with them to Tarshish, away from the presence of the Lord.

When you finally stop saying no, I can’t, what if, but, and maybe to God. This sentence came thru my mind right after I agreed to lead bible study next week. It brought tears of Joy to linger in this thought because of all the running away from God I did for half my life, truthfully, all it brought was more sadness, depression, confusion, anger, hatred, loneliness and unhappiness to my life. Everything I did was for the wrong reason (knowingly and unknowingly) and all I attracted was drama, chaos and while it brought that into my life it also brought so much uncertainty about everything my little brain could think of. I was so exhausted from running that it lead me to drugs and alcohol, it took me to make some very dangerous choices with the life that God had given me, and it was all roads leading to death for me. When I was too tired to even contemplate how I could just end it all, I stopped running, I dropped on my knees and I cried, I wailed, I painfully groaned, I had no words, all I did was to let my whole entire body just cry. I couldn’t tell you how many days this lasted but it was more than a couple, where all I did was pray in the darkness if my room and I fasted and prayed. What I was asking God to show me had to be supernatural and it had to be big because I couldn’t be here on this earth any longer, I asked Him to show me His glory, to make me feel like I was really set aside and made for His purpose, and He did. I begged and begged the Holy Spirit to bring down the cleansing fire on me, my change had to be radical, I had no time left in me, and He did. I was so broken in this world and I kept letting it break me, then I asked Jesus to reveal Himself and to show me His love, and I saw in my mind, Jesus sitting on His throne and His arms were opened towards a little girl who was about 7 and it was me, I ran to Him, to the safety of His loving arms and loved me, He does. I was desperate there’s was nothing but God showing up or me leaving this earth but I knew that if I wanted Him to show up I had to show Him how badly I needed Him to come into my life. I did it the radical way, the reckless, the abnormal, the outrageous, the most extreme way I could think of calling on Jesus because really dying on the cross for me was just all of those things and more, I was ready to show Him too that if I had another chance at life I’d live it in the light. Stop running from God, Stop running to toxic relationships, toxic love, toxic habits, toxic dependencies, toxic ideas, toxic thoughts, toxic emotions, toxic expectations, toxic Idols, toxic friendships, stop running to a toxic life that will only bring sorrow, resentment, anger, anxiety and hopelessness. Jesus is waiting and His arms are wide open for you. The only thing you have to lose is the darkness.

Abba, my wonderful loving Abba. My heart rejoices and skips a beat at the thought of your unconditional love and forgiveness, faithful you are yesterday today and forever. Here I am, make me the light that shines thru the depth of darkness and brings life to that which has none. Lord, make me yours and guide my life in the direction of eternity. I want to be radical, reckless, outrageous, bold in this world for your Glory. In your love to show others the same amazing grace and compassion you had for me that I may have for those who need it. Break me, search me, refine me, let my hands hold the fire of your Spirit. Those who prayed this prayer now, Lord, show them, reveal yourself to them who you are, amaze them. Let the fire fall on them right now. In Jesus name Amen.