Big Faith…

2 Corinthians 5:7
For we live by faith, not by sight.

Psalms 145:18
The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Mark 5:36
Overhearing what they said, Jesus told him, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.”

Psalms 9:10
Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord , have never forsaken those who seek you.

What if God asked you for something big? A faith so big that it’s not comprehensible. The kind of faith that fights your human feelings and thoughts. I wonder how many of us believers have already experienced that or are experiencing that at this moment in our lives. My biggest moment was cancer. I didn’t know what God was preparing me for before it happened but trusting him I kept listening and learning whatever he wanted me to. Then one day, cancer. Something inside sparked and my spirit connected all that I had learned and it became clear why. God said to me, You will live, but the process won’t be easy, you’ll want to die, but you have to hold on. And it was exactly that. Chemotherapy was no joke. There were days when I would cry all day and all I wanted was to stop treatment and let the cancer take me, at least I would be in heaven. There were many days when I didn’t feel like listening to worship or listening to the bible (my vision was distorted while in chemo) but I did it anyway. The words that mostly came out of my mouth, at every moment was I trust you. When I was in pain, when I couldn’t see, when I couldn’t sleep, when the nurses couldn’t find my veins, when I felt nauseous, when I couldn’t walk, when I had to dress myself in the dark, when I couldn’t eat, when I wanted to die, I would say, I trust you. What my body wanted was to die but my Spirit commanded it to live. I had to go against every negative feeling, I had to do what God had asked me to, which was live. The word says that man won’t live on bread alone, I know what that means, I had to give my Spirit all the promises God had given me and I had to fill it with worship for my father in heaven, I had to call the name of Jesus. I had to feed my faith to keep my spirit connected to the one who gives life. My testimony is greater than just this, this is just a snapshot but a great one. What if God asked you to sacrifice your child? What if you had to go before the king without being summoned? What if you were called into the water? What if you had to walk into the fire? We all did something that required faith. We all went against what our human emotions were telling us. God is greater! Trust him, trust his process, he will never fail you, he will never forsake you.

Father, thank you. Thank you for being faithful. Thank you for letting me call on you when I need you. Thank you for holding me in the palm of your hand. Thank you for getting me thru. I pray that my Sprit will always be connected to yours so that I may always know what to do in times of trouble. Lord, give me what I need, I receive it, all of it. Give me the wisdom to deal with things unknown and give me the peace I  need in times of chaos. Lord I simply just trust you. I trust that you know the plans that you have for me. You arey shepard, I shall not want. I follow your lead because you know best. Abba, I love you, I trust you. In Jesus name Amen.

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